April 22, 2003 : 38 weeks

I don't even know how to begin..

Well, my appointment was at 1:10pm. We got there and the room was PACKED!! We ended up waiting about 50 min for my turn! There was a cute baby in there to entertain us though! Prob 9 months old or so..

Finally it was our turn.. and I walked in and my jaw just dropped. My fav. midwife isn't there anymore. SHe's on vacation for 2-3 weeks! So I obviously won't be having her deliver my baby! The whole point of going to a midwife was because I wanted to get to KNOW the person delivering me! There's 2 midwives there and I've had both, but I def had my fav and I don't get her. At least my chances with the other one are pretty good. The lady doing the appointments today I had never even met! SHe retired from the practice when I was first going there and never had her. But since the one is on vacation, she's filling in.

Hmm let's also mention that she didn't speak English. Neither did the intern there (who I have hated since I met her around 32 wks). Peter had to translate everything! Blood pressure was 120/60 and then it was up on the table.

The midwife was talking to Peter the whole time so the intern decided to 'take matters in her own hands.' She came up to me and had NO CLUE what she was doing!! She kept saying (in Dutch) I think this is the back? She didn't even know how to measure the fundus.. heck, even I know how to do that! SHe was like all up in my bra and stuff!! I kept giving Peter LOOKS to get his attention to stop talking to the midwife but he didn't catch on. So then the intern decides to listen to the heartbeat.

He didn't have a heartbeat. SHe went ALLLLL over me and couldn't find it. I just burst into tears and went nutso!! Then the midwife finally noticed and took over.. SHe kept trying to calm me like for 10 min it seemed and I was just saying 'I NEED TO HEAR HIS HEARTBEAT!' She wasn't listening and I couldn't talk I was crying so hard! Then she asked me if he moved today, etc and then I just KNEW something was wrong! Peter finally asked her to try for the heartbeat again..

Turns out that the intern didn't use the gel for the heartbeat thing and that's why it didn't work. MAN I have never been so relieved to hear his heartbeat!!! I still kept crying though!

I guess there's something about pregnancy that once you start crying you can't stop?

The real midwife was actually very thorough though and even had me put my hands around the baby's head way down in my pelvis. She was like everyone's mom rubbing my head and saying 'ssssh, it's ok' But it wasn't ok. Don't let an intern do such things if she doesn't know how! She's going to give so many pregnant women heart attacks of their own!

Peter says that the intern prob will never forget what happened and won't be stupid again.

I didn't get to ask many questions I had and it just was a crappy visit. I wanted to ask about getting my membranes stripped but this woman was totally hands off. I'm 39 weeks in 2 days and still have not had my cervix checked. I told them that the past 2 days have been very painful for me. lower back hurts, period like cramps, lots of stuff coming out of me, etc. I don't even think she heard me.

So please all pray that I have my baby this week so I have the midwife I already know (not my fav but at least I know her...)!! I don't want another visit like today's that's for sure!

If anyone knows a way to hurry things along tell me. I'm about ready to try caster oil.. even though I've always been against it.. I've done the rasp. leaf tea, sex, walking, stair climbing, bumpy roads....I'm at the end of my rope here.. a home c section might happen if my mood doesn't go up!! LOL

Ok I feel better venting!!